Chin Up....

Trying so hard to keep this chin up. I try so hard to just get through the day sometimes. I have so much to be thankful for and so much to look forward to. I don't know if it is just that maybe we are at the top of the pile. Maybe I am just not a patient person. Some days are better than the others. Some days just suck. I think if maybe I knew when we would get the call that would make a difference. I doubt it. I like to be in control and right now someone else holds our future. These few past few weeks have really been hard for some reason. Not so sure why, but I feel like my heart is really going to break sometimes. Lord knows I have Elias to keep me busy and he makes me full. This dream has just been in the works for almost 2 years now and no news. I keep saying, well maybe we will know who she is by the time we do this or that. And each time that event has past us by with no news of who our daughter is. Like I said, some days are great and I barely think about it. Other days are just not fun. I do look forward to going to bed though. I think about that phone call and that trip to China. I think about seeing Norah's face for the first time and the circle will finally be complete. What sweet sweet dreams....